The Worst Days

by Tonic Horse

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1.
Alone 01:15
2.
Warp Speed 03:36
Hit the road clear out get out of here. It's time to leave, time to shift the gear. The winds of change are pushing me through, and I'm sorry, but I can't hold on you. This place feels different and I haven't even left, where have the good times gone, are they just in the past? I recognize that I'm not handling this the best, but what do you want from a guy who wears his insecurities on his chest? Warp speed through town, memories come rushing up from the ground. Faces that I've never seen, and names that don't mean anything to me. Cut the motivational prophecies, and leave me in the dark with my guitar and some lyrics to scream. Rock and roll burning light in my soul. If this is how its gonna be well, I guess I've gotta go. Warp speed through town, memories come rushing up from the ground. Faces that I've never seen, and names that don't mean anything to me. Warp speed through town, memories come rushing up from the ground. Faces that I've never seen, and names that don't mean anything to me. WARP SPEED through town, memories come rushing up from the ground. Faces that I've never seen, and names that don't mean anything to me. (Warp speed through town) Don't hold me down, I know you said you never would, but we both see how that played out Warp speed through town.
3.
Didn't think I needed, your permission to live. Are threats and backhand compliments the only thing you'll give? And its such a chore, such a waste of my day dealing with the shit you say. I cannot believe that you're still talking, It's like your deaf or maybe you're just fucking neurotic. I don't know what I mean to you but I know what I mean to me, and I'm telling you I mean a lot. So leave your baggage on the table, listen up and then be able to hear me say: Go Fuck Yourself. There's nothing constructive about what you say. Everyone would keep putting me down if you had it your way. And I gotta commend it, cos its kind of amazing: the way you talk without thinking. Are you sure thats what you want me to hear? Do you even know what you're saying? I don't know what I mean to you but I know what I mean to me, and I'm telling you I mean a lot. So leave your baggage on the table, listen up and then be able to hear me say: Go Fuck Yourself. Day in day out you put me down I don't know what I mean to you but I know what I mean to me, and I'm telling you I mean a lot. So leave your baggage on the table, listen up and then be able to hear me say: Go Fuck Yourself. I don't know what I mean to you but I know what I mean to me, and I'm telling you I mean a lot. So leave your baggage on the table, listen up and then be able to hear me say: GO FUCK Yourself.
4.
Circles 03:51
I got mine and you've got yours, I don't need anything more. I'm not saying that you've gotta settle, but you gotta learn when to pick your battles. What are you waiting for? Did you think that there would be more? What are you waiting for? Make this life yours. I'm not saying you're devoid of courage, I'm not saying you're a tad too late. But I'm saying that you'll never know, until you try and kick down the gate so, What are you waiting for? Did you think that there would be more? What are you waiting for? Make this life your fucking dance floor. Time and time again, These circles were running in. Say what you want, say what you need, do what you gotta do to be happy. The lights fall on to you. The World is in your hands. This is your chance, how will you stack? Take the moment, yeah don't look back! What are you waiting for? Did you think that there would be more? What are you waiting for? Make this life your fucking dance floor. Time and time again, These circles were running in. Say what you want, say what you need, do what you gotta do to be happy. The only one who thinks your lost is yourself. So turn that cheek, get a stiff upper lip, and get ready to go through hell. don't keep it to yourself get loud, you're not alone just take a look around Time and time again, These circles were running in. Say what you want, say what you need, do what you gotta do to be happy.
5.
Serotonin 03:31
I can't get it out of my head, the dream I had last night in bed. I was there and you were too, even unconscious I can't escape you. You wanted the high life, you wanted a good time, I wanted time to be alive. You felt the end coming closer, started looking for closure, not thinking what you would do if you survived. Why would I ever want it this way? Life has a habit of picking The Worst Days. Don't assume the part you play in someone else's five act tragedy. I'm running out of ground to cover, but when the heat is on I only go faster. Serotonin, where has she gone? If I'm honest she's taking all I own. Can't, won't, whats the difference? You were right alright alright, okay I admit. Why would I want it this way? Life has a habit of picking The Worst Days. Don't assume the part you play in someone else's five act tragedy. I'm running out of ground to cover, but when the heat is on I only go faster. It's literary genius, the way I'm messing this up, with no chance of ever recovering. What chapter of life are you jumping in? The characters we like never make it to the end. One and two, three and four, five and then a curtain call. Lights are down, clear the stage, disappear without a trace. GO GO! Why would I want it this way? Life has a habit of PICKING THE WORST DAYS! Don't assume the part you play in someone else's five act tragedy. I'm running out of ground to cover, but when the heat is on I only go faster. It's literary genius, the way I'm messing this up, with no chance of ever recovering. What chapter of life are you jumping in? The characters we like never make it to the end.
6.
Exhausted 03:00
I'm up till 4 A.M. every day. I drown myself in work, trying to find another way. So don't tell me to "get over it." My life is too filled up to be devoting time to your bullshit. I'm staring down the clock until my head explodes, check back with me in an hour to see me overload! And thats why I gotta ask you, will what I'm doing have value? (X2) The days are long, and overlap. I don't have time for another four hour depression nap. I only have myself to blame, and that's what I hate the most, about this God damn fucked up game. I'm staring down the clock until my head explodes, check back with me in an hour to see me overload! And thats why I gotta ask you, will what I'm doing have value? (X2) Am I wasting my youth? Or just wasting my time? My head is getting distorted, and I'm just fucking exhausted! And thats why I gotta ask you, will what I'm doing have value? (X2) Am I wasting my youth? Or just wasting my time? My head is getting distorted, and I'm just fucking exhausted! And thats why I gotta ask you, will what I'm doing have value? (X2) Am I wasting my youth? Or just wasting my time? My head is getting distorted, and I'm just fucking exhausted! Im fucking exhausted...
7.
You're wasting time, you're screaming away your days. You're burning light, with every single word you say... I'm not one for the future, is it really hard to tell? Took one look in the mirror, so fucking far I fell. Am I really less than zero, is that the best you've got? You say you don't see my tomorrow so I should just go die and rot You're wasting time, you're screaming away your days. You're burning light, with every single word you say. All I ever do it seems is bitch and moan. rambling about my feelings, ranting about some loss of control. You're wasting time, you're screaming away your days. You're burning light, with every single word you say. How can you say its impossible if you've never tried? How will you learn to live if you give away your life?! You're wasting time, you're screaming away your days. You're burning light, with every single word you say. I'M WASTING TIME, I'M SCREAMING AWAY MY DAYS. I'M BURNING LIGHT, WITH EVERY SINGLE WORD I SAY!
8.
Naive (2018) 03:23
Don't make this harder than it should be, you're hurting me I promise you. Can't get everything you want, don't take life lessons at face value They say time heals all wounds, says the man who's never hurt. Words cut deep, don't avoid the issue, but you can't grow until you open up your heart. But I'm not giving up on people, life's too short so don't waste time. And if I never learn my lesson, I'll be happy knowing why. Can't escape this cycle, open up and then get hurt. I should catch on, but I don't, and I'm too stubborn to take the time to learn. But I'm not giving up on people, life's too short so don't waste time. And if I never learn my lesson, I'll be happy knowing why. I am an open book, my heart is painted on my sleeve. And if you dare rip out my pages, would you think I'm so naive. But I'm not giving up on people, life's too short so don't waste time. And if I never learn my lesson, I'll be happy knowing why. I am an open book, my heart is painted on my sleeve. And if you dare rip out my pages, would you think I'm so naive.
9.
Monster 03:38
I love the world I live in, but I hate my place. I love the people around me, but I can't stand my own face. I love the sun in the morning, but I don't want to get up. just stare at the ceiling. Time passes slower with every passing day, I feel the seconds pass by with every word I say, but not with you. And you see everything about who I am, and you won't leave my side and I don't understand. Don't turn me into a monster yet, help me try to see my life a little different. Don't wake me up if I'm on my death bed, With someone like you, I gotta believe that this life was just a dream. It's the little things, like how are you today. It's the big things, like I didn't want to talk to you any way. Its the fact that sometimes all it takes is for someone to try, its the fact that you're so wonderful I wanna cry. And you see everything about who I am, and you won't leave my side and I don't understand. Don't turn me into a monster yet, help me try to see my life a little different. Don't wake me up if I'm on my death bed, With someone like you, I gotta believe that this life was just a dream. Cos when I, look, in the mirror I see something I hate. But you say, when you look at me you see something worth it's time and place. (X2) Don't turn me into a monster yet, help me try to see my life a little different. Don't wake me up if I'm on my death bed, With someone like you, I gotta believe that this life was just a dream. Don't turn me into a monster yet, help me try to see my life a little different. Don't wake me up if I'm on my death bed, With someone like you, I gotta believe that this life was just a dream. (I love the world I live in, but I hate my place. I love the people around me, but I can't stand my own face. I love the sun in the morning, but I don't want to get up. just stare at the ceiling.) (It's the little things, like how are you today. It's the big things, like I didn't want to talk to you any way. Its the fact that sometimes all it takes is for someone to try, its the fact that you're so wonderful I wanna cry.) Just a dream (X2)
10.
Too much of everything but time, and so much on the line. I'm feeling things and thinking thoughts that I'm not sure are even mine. But I refuse to let this bring me down today, gotta get through gotta find another way. I swear I'll live through this. Stand at the ready for the next hit. You can call me Superman, but lately I've been feeling my own short life span. You can tell me what I've missed but the fact of the matter is: I couldn't care less. I'm so much stronger than you'll ever see, it's not a shot at you its more of a fact to me. I swear I'll live through this. Stand at the ready for the next hit. Head high and aim to the sky. I've been dead weight for what feels like forever. I'm out of my mind, so give it a try, bruised and bloodied but keeping up the pressure. Look at the clouds then back to the ground, you'll find me where Ive always been around. Head high and aim to the sky. Head high and aim to the sky. I'm the resident disappointment, try your best to never forget it. I've set my expectations so low that doing anything is like an accomplishment. I've been living so long at zero that I've gotta kinda wonder what its like to be a hero. I swear I'll live through this, My life is one you don't wanna miss! Head high and aim to the sky. I've been dead weight for what feels like forever. I'm out of my mind, so give it a try, bruised and bloodied but keeping up the pressure. Look at the clouds then back to the ground, you'll find me where Ive always been around. Head high and aim to the sky. Head high and aim to the sky. Good luck, keeping me down beat to shit, but I'm ready for another round (X4) Head high and aim to the sky. I've been dead weight for what feels like forever. I'm out of my mind, so give it a try, bruised and bloodied but keeping up the pressure. Look at the clouds then back to the ground, you'll find me where Ive always been around. Head high and aim to the sky. Head high and aim to the sky. (X2)
11.
I wake up at 1 A.M. on a Wednesday afternoon. I'd rather stay in bed all day. and never do anything. I know that it's not smart, never said that I was, but don't you worry about me because I'm aware of whats piling up. And I have negative motivation. Negative motivation, yeah you know I do. Negative motivation. I have negative motivation, yeah what about you? I'm making a list, with the title: To Do. And it's getting longer by the minute, but I couldn't be fucked to do a thing about it. Negative motivation. I have negative motivation, yeah you know I do. Negative motivation. I have negative motivation, yeah what about you? Negative motivation. I have negative motivation, yeah you know I do. Negative motivation. I have negative motivation, and so do you! (X2)
12.
Tail Spin 02:00
I rarely wake up feeling better than when I went to sleep! I'm calling out for help so why am I talking to my self? The screen of my phone is burning into my retinas so why do I feel like I'm losing connection. Can't get to bed, can't get to sleep, my head is racing like a driver in the backseat. I'm losing my mind, I can't get it right. I'm in a tail spin for the night. Trapped in a prison of my own design, quietly waiting for stars to aline. Insomniatic, Hypocondriactic, I'm living my life on automatic. I'm losing track of the days, not because they're special but because they all feel the same. The screen of my phone is burning into my retinas so why do I feel like I'm losing connection. Can't get to bed, can't get to sleep, my head is racing like a driver in the backseat. I'm losing my mind, I can't get it right. I'm in a tail spin for the night. Trapped in a prison of my own design, quietly waiting for stars to aline. I wanna know what made me like this was it my parents, or God, or my fault for how it is. Don't know how much more I can take, waking up each day hoping I don't break. The screen of my phone is burning into my retinas so why do I feel like I'm losing connection. Can't get to bed, can't get to sleep, my head is racing like a driver in the backseat. I'm losing my mind, I can't get it right. I'm in a tail spin for the night. Trapped in a prison of my own design, quietly waiting for stars to aline.
13.
Sometimes I wonder, am I a sociopath. The way I attach myself to others, and then detach. It's so damn easy, but is it really? honestly I can't tell and it scares the living daylights out of me. I don't need your sympathy, I don't need your company, I just want someone to hold me, I just need someone to love me. My heart is up for sale, and its going to the fastest bidder. My heart is up for sale, and it could be yours if you're the first one to pull the trigger. Do I trust too easily? Or do I trust no body? these questions keep me up at night, they go right through me. I just want someone to fix me, I just wanna feel alright inside, I just wanna be happy, but that only shows on the outside. I don't need your empathy, I don't need you to help me, I just want someone to hold me, I just need someone to love me. My heart is up for sale, and its going to the fastest bidder. My heart is up for sale, and it could be yours if you're the first one to pull the trigger. (X2)
14.
(Not) Alone 03:23
I fucking love music, it makes me feel alive. Vibrations from the guitar, while I scream out for my life. I beat and drag myself down for a place to start. When did I become so cynical and create pain for the sake of art? I'm done with living in the past (X2) I am not alone (X2) I love other people and the way we all interact. how whenever I find myself on the floor, theres always someone at my back I can sit here and scream about, how I don't deserve it. But I'm the only one who sees it that way so the thought doesn't really feel fucking worth it. I'm done with living in the past (X2) I am not alone (X2) Warp speed through town, I don't know what I mean to you what are you waiting for? Will what I'm doing have value? You're wasting time would you think I'm a monster yet? Head high and aim to the sky, yeah you know I do. I rarely wake up feeling better than when I went to sleep, my heart is up for sale. Even on The Worst Days I am not alone! (X2)

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released June 1, 2018

Guitar/Vocals: Justin Sczesny
Drums: Beau Wilcox
Bass: Luke Lowrance

Group Vocals: George Velez Cue, Sally Walker, Fiona Peterson-Quinn

Special Thanks: Evan Lawson for the support and headphones. Matt McDonald for the drums, recording space, and wiring. And just all of our families and friends.

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